some of this may be a repeat from the other day but this in whole is where i am at in my mind.
1. i worry about the suffering of the far but also the very local homeless and injured, those with traumatic brain injuries that cannot communicate. i'm helpless to help them, i have no skill but compassion.
2. pain and tragedy of those being harmed...in youth, how can this be stopped/prevented?
3. to those so entrenched intheir own lives and their own 'little' successes.
they are poor and small minded in a whole that they can not see that they are so small and insignificant in those little sucesses. it is only with family and friends and god that we are truly successful.
4. i like lucius have been transformed not into the winged creature ive discovered i am now but into the dumb beast of an Ass. yes i live under the readar which until now has been fine. but now i see and know that i am more than an Ass but all those around me, that is all they see, some have even grown to love. my transforming now will benefit my soul but disurupt my life and of those around me. i am constantly supressed. constant obstacles, i am but a joke, as the creature i am see as, not for what i am.
5. i want to stay drugged and dull so that i may stay friends and that my marriage stays happy.
6. i wish in part to od this time to cause just enough damage to dull my. so that i have little to no intraspection.
i fthis is not possible that i think at times with my inner struggles so deep that i would be better at rest. the inner struggles rip my heart and divide my soul. and the worst part of all is that it is within theis struggle within this knowledge of how individuals must change to grow and flourish, that i must remain silent. and within this, i am utterly eternally alone.
1. i worry about the suffering of the far but also the very local homeless and injured, those with traumatic brain injuries that cannot communicate. i'm helpless to help them, i have no skill but compassion.
2. pain and tragedy of those being harmed...in youth, how can this be stopped/prevented?
3. to those so entrenched intheir own lives and their own 'little' successes.
they are poor and small minded in a whole that they can not see that they are so small and insignificant in those little sucesses. it is only with family and friends and god that we are truly successful.
4. i like lucius have been transformed not into the winged creature ive discovered i am now but into the dumb beast of an Ass. yes i live under the readar which until now has been fine. but now i see and know that i am more than an Ass but all those around me, that is all they see, some have even grown to love. my transforming now will benefit my soul but disurupt my life and of those around me. i am constantly supressed. constant obstacles, i am but a joke, as the creature i am see as, not for what i am.
5. i want to stay drugged and dull so that i may stay friends and that my marriage stays happy.
6. i wish in part to od this time to cause just enough damage to dull my. so that i have little to no intraspection.
i fthis is not possible that i think at times with my inner struggles so deep that i would be better at rest. the inner struggles rip my heart and divide my soul. and the worst part of all is that it is within theis struggle within this knowledge of how individuals must change to grow and flourish, that i must remain silent. and within this, i am utterly eternally alone.
