Friday, August 27, 2010

Support vs Sacrifice

So amazingly my dysthymia personality is a benefit to me.   things in my emotions are becoming less light-hearted, more serious and i'm contemplating more.
about a month ago my friend found herself in a serious situation. i immediately felt bound to defend her, filled with anxiety over her situation, but torn due to the situation. With all my self-thought, i've descovered that i'm NOT judge and jury and i dont need to believe her guilt or innocence. 

Something i am able to do now that i couldnt fathom one month ago is that i love this friend, and regardless of what transpired, i will support her, listen to her and show advice and help when warranted.  That does not mean i need to dive under a bus, and it does NOT mean that i would need to cross any of my boundries to protect her.  
The situation is what it is, and i am what i am...a good friend...not a martyr.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

so i'm reading hermann and dorothea....(quite enjoying)..there are a list of authors on the back.  wanting to find "The Fates of Illustrious Men" by Giovanni Boccaccio.
looked on amazon, it was listed, but not available.   want to track this down.  would like to do interlibrary loan, rather than purchase. if that, then abe books i guess.