Why is it on friday's i feel the most mentally active. I feel spot on regarding complex information. Then as soon as i am really going its time for the weekend. which at times are hard for me emotionally.
i'm ready for the day. have coffee. took AD, took Adderall. ready to roll.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
So many feelings
last night i felt the dark cloak of depression sinking in again.
this morning was a bit better. but still not great. i just took more medication.
I was txting a friend and mentioned this whirlpool of emotions and just dont know how to deal with them all. i just want to curl up tight on the floor in a closet.
Felt, tired, sad, scared, strong, empowered, scared, in love, suicidal, did i mention scared.
dont know where to go with all these.
i also this afternoon as depression got lower, started having flashbacks. sometimes i wonder whats worse, having the flashback of abuse, or knowing you can have a flashback at anytime. that they will never....Never go away.
this morning was a bit better. but still not great. i just took more medication.
I was txting a friend and mentioned this whirlpool of emotions and just dont know how to deal with them all. i just want to curl up tight on the floor in a closet.
Felt, tired, sad, scared, strong, empowered, scared, in love, suicidal, did i mention scared.
dont know where to go with all these.
i also this afternoon as depression got lower, started having flashbacks. sometimes i wonder whats worse, having the flashback of abuse, or knowing you can have a flashback at anytime. that they will never....Never go away.
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