Wednesday, March 9, 2011

So many feelings

last night i felt the dark cloak of depression sinking in again.
this morning was a bit better. but still not great. i just took more medication.
I was txting a friend and mentioned this whirlpool of emotions and just dont know how to deal with them all. i just want to curl up tight on the floor in a closet.
Felt, tired, sad, scared, strong, empowered, scared, in love, suicidal, did i mention scared.

dont know where to go with all these.
i also this afternoon as depression got lower, started having flashbacks. sometimes i wonder whats worse, having the flashback of abuse, or knowing you can have a flashback at anytime. that they will never....Never go away.

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