so i have been listening to the same song...back to back for the last 7 hours....and i'm still not tired of it. its like i need more of it. one of those songs with lots of harmonics. and it seems like one of the singers has diplophonia. i know when they mix songs they do that sometimes, but im not sure if thats his real voice or if its fixed to do that. i Love it.
i want to mention the song because later (month or so) after i phase out the song i want to return to it and see if it infact the song was just good, or if it is consoling acoustically some part of my mind that needs reigning in or taming. the song is "what's my name" by Rhianna ft.Drake
mostly better at staying present today than yesterday. and i dont know WHAT happened yesterday that i started to dissociate so badly. i really struggled last night. i can only think that i was just really tired. i went to bed before 9:00.
and the last THREE nights i have slept AWESOME. not only Great sleep, but dreams too. so i KNOW i was really getting GOOD sleep. and good/normal dreams, no nightmares, no hypnogogic or hypnopompic crap! just normally, weird dreams! :)
i am really feeling rested in the mornings. this morning, i didnt even NEED coffee. and i forgot my pristiq (which adds energy for the day).
i dont see therapist till next tuesday. see pdoc tonight.
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