so its taken me 7 years but i've finally figured out i will Always have flashbacks. i guess going through therapy i thought when i had one if i hurried to therapist, and described in detail my flashback and related incident that it would be gone...forever. i was wrong. i'm finally realizing that not only will i Always have flashbacks, that i may have periodic new ones as well. My goal should be learning how to deal with these in my life. My pdoc is a great resource for me on that. He described once how he had a major flashback right before our appt. (as i was coming in the door) but he had to put it aside to help me. This i guess is a hands on experience for me to realize that it CAN be done. That i dont NEED to explain or rehash in detail that flashback inorder for it to go away. That i need to figure out how to push through the ones that i get. i feel a part of me has asked this for a few years but either i got the answer and couldn't understand or deal with it at the time and needed to talk about them or i just wasn't getting the right answer for me to 'get-it'.
I admire my pdoc greatly. mostly cuz he's very intelligent, but hes got a great personality that fits my needs very well. and since he works with people with PTSD i feel he will be a great resource for me on this.
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