So today i am very worried about my loved ones. i fear something will happen to them. i'm scared to death. anxiety was so high it was making me nauseous. Took my anxiety meds but cant seem to shake feeling.
To help my concern i txtd people i care about. i heard back from all but one. I am also very worried about my babies. but i'm also afraid to call worrying that my call will cause one of them to be injured....
cant shake this feeling. i wont feel better until i pick up my children and am safe at home, in fact wont feel 100% until day is over and all are safe asleep.
Im not sure what else i can do. my worry is so high. even after texting. even after meds. i want to take more meds. but then i worry about driving with meds, maybe THAT's what i need to be worrying about. i want someone else to drive. to pick up kiddos. But what if THAT is what i need to be worrying about?
What if i pick them up early? and THAT's the problem, what if i pick them up late? and THAT's the problem? Drive slower?? Drive faster???? I CANT WIN....Its all filled with Deathly possibilities!
im lost in this cyclic paradox!
To help my concern i txtd people i care about. i heard back from all but one. I am also very worried about my babies. but i'm also afraid to call worrying that my call will cause one of them to be injured....
cant shake this feeling. i wont feel better until i pick up my children and am safe at home, in fact wont feel 100% until day is over and all are safe asleep.
Im not sure what else i can do. my worry is so high. even after texting. even after meds. i want to take more meds. but then i worry about driving with meds, maybe THAT's what i need to be worrying about. i want someone else to drive. to pick up kiddos. But what if THAT is what i need to be worrying about?
What if i pick them up early? and THAT's the problem, what if i pick them up late? and THAT's the problem? Drive slower?? Drive faster???? I CANT WIN....Its all filled with Deathly possibilities!
im lost in this cyclic paradox!
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