this seems to bode well for me and my personal confidence. however, it seems a constant consternation to me at work. Those around me seemed to have thought me a .....half-wit...for lack of better word. As some of their comments to me are insulting.
the other day i was listening to a podcast on socratic method, which lets face it everyone knows about. and one person overheard this and was...his words "impressed" that i was listening to it. it seemed it was very...deep...for someone such as me i suppose (i say angry and sarcastic).
however, to give him the benefit of the doubt i have never shown my true side to him in the past. i allow him to see only what i want him to see and in the past i have only ever needed him tosee the 'student' side of me.
Also, the person who in the past saw (or i thought) saw me as intelligent, has lately been aggitated with me and almost as if he is trying to prove that he is at a ...higher level than me.
which...well, i'm no fool. he is. BUT, its like he was starting to get insecure around me.
Sorry guys but it seems that most of the males i've met in my life are like this. They seem to get Very insecure around intelligent women. That in part is why i have tried all my life to play it dumb. To push down and silence my intellect. and it's worked.
It seems more and more, no one wants to be around me when i'm smart...except work folk...when its to their benefit.
i'm sad... :(
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