so here i am struggling at work. trying my best to work and not find a hole to crawl into.
The anxiety and fear are at it again. i feel the need to be curled up, to be covered. to be small.
again anxiety so bad i had to double up my meds now i'm worried it took too much. then i took my adderall, which isnt that the anti gabapentin? are they working against eachother?
i feel like thats gonna mess up my body too.
ugh. im' seriously freaking out. my mind is thinking about everything i do wrong, done wrong, will do wrong. then why bother. why not just go home curl under my covers and not get up.
i'm also working off of about 3 hours sleep. could NOT sleep last night. about 1 when got to sleep and woke up prematurely at 4:30 and i was awake enough that within a minute my anxiety kicked in. so i layed there till just before 6. Couldnt wait any longer for the 6:00 alarm.
wish i knew what was going on. why the anxiety. and i know, most of all. i just need to go back on my zyprexa for a few days. just enough to kill some of these feelings and thoughts. i can handle the physical anxiety, but not everything else that comes with it.
The anxiety and fear are at it again. i feel the need to be curled up, to be covered. to be small.
again anxiety so bad i had to double up my meds now i'm worried it took too much. then i took my adderall, which isnt that the anti gabapentin? are they working against eachother?
i feel like thats gonna mess up my body too.
ugh. im' seriously freaking out. my mind is thinking about everything i do wrong, done wrong, will do wrong. then why bother. why not just go home curl under my covers and not get up.
i'm also working off of about 3 hours sleep. could NOT sleep last night. about 1 when got to sleep and woke up prematurely at 4:30 and i was awake enough that within a minute my anxiety kicked in. so i layed there till just before 6. Couldnt wait any longer for the 6:00 alarm.
wish i knew what was going on. why the anxiety. and i know, most of all. i just need to go back on my zyprexa for a few days. just enough to kill some of these feelings and thoughts. i can handle the physical anxiety, but not everything else that comes with it.
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